Letter to No One

Dear You,

I have so many things to say to you, and to tell you. So many things that I want people to hear, and at the same time not to hear. I know the time has gone when they're for your ears. And I know what I say will give you more grief and trouble than you need right now, with your exams and all. At the same time, if I don't say them, I feel as if my heart would burst. Since you probably haven't come here in ages, and will probably not, I guess I can write them out here. A sort of a compromise, I guess.

Everything seems wrong. Wrong timing, wrong move, wrong words. I mean, just as you had gotten used to me not being around, here I am trying to crash my way back into your life again, as noisily as I had left to begin with. Here I am, wanting to make decisions that leave with you with no say in the matter.

I have no excuses to make for my actions, save that I am terribly afraid that I will never get you back again. I know I'm clingy and needy. But I do need you. I feel so lost knowing that you don't care anymore, and that you don't love me anymore.

Sigh, forget it, I think the more I open my mouth, the worse things become.

Love you sweetheart.